"the fear"

yesterday I took a make up tumbling class (harvest moon festivities are making me miss my normal tuesday class) and fell on my head. twice. very hard. I've now developed something I like to call "the fear". I remember when I was a kid I used to leap off super high jungle gyms at the park and do crazy acrobatics off chin up bars, throwing caution to the wind! now it's all..wait..am I going to hurt tomorrow? is there a chance I may injure an important limb? and the answer is yes. I'm old, and I have the fear. but I love my tumbling class anyway. it's so great to feel myself getting stronger, even just over a small 3-session span.

this weekend was also helen's birthday! i spent an hour curling my hair and tried to bring the "hawtness", but I didn't really have anything nice to wear so I looked sort of plain next to all the other girls (who were wearing cute dresses and had a lot of boobage going on. hey, if I had them i'd flaunt em too). I recently went through my (already sparse) wardrobe and pulled out clothing I haven't worn in awhile. and on top of that i donated 5 pairs of shoes to goodwill on a whim and now I have nothing to wear but uncomfortable boots and heels. Probably not the best idea to donate all my everday wearable shoes before I got some new ones, eh?

So it's saturday night, I'm in my drab clothing but rocking semi-fabulous hair, and I'm dining at Citizen Thai (or maybe better known as Citizen Thai and the Monkey). This place is absolutely fantastic. i really wasn't prepared for how good it was. Most thai places seem much the same as other thai places to me, but i was thoroughly impressed when I tasted everybody else's curries and then scarfed down my own delicious salad. shrimp/mango/onion salad in lime juice..who knew? Laura's curry came in a pumpkin, and M.Poynter's came in a coconut! additional points for presentation. We stopped by Rosewood and some other bar in north beach afterwards. Nothing overly tremendous happened...I had a bad run in with a bag of avocado chips and part of a snicker's bar, but by the end of the night it was actually painful to still be awake. Isn't that a horrible feeling? to be actually pained simply from being awake?

i've been feeling that way a lot recently, it seems. I don't know if I'm working out too hard, if I'm overly dehydrated, if I'm lacking vitamins, or if I just haven't been sleeping enough. I just know that I have been feeling bone-tired at the end of each day and every night it's just a relief to not be awake anymore. So when I look at my calendar and realize that I'm incredibly busy all week and at the end of it I'm going to Vegas, i cringe a little bit inside, knowing that I have another sleep deprived week ahead of me.

oh, and quickly! checked out Urinetown at the Altarena Playhouse in Alameda. Anne was musically directing so Steven and I went to show a bit of support. Everybody did a really great job. Urinetown is so clever and wonderfully satirical, and the playhouse gives you free cookies (okay only half free, it's by donation) at intermission! if only all shows were like that.